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Name: Gunner
Gender: Female
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| So...I'm dealing with something I've never had to deal with before. In fact, I'm dealing with something it never even OCCURRED to me that I WOULD have to deal with. And I don't know what to do.
Being at the Academy is HARD. Believe me when I say this...and that's about the biggest understatement I could possibly make. But the people I've met here have become some of the best friends I've ever had and ever will have. They're my brothers and sisters, and I love them. I wouldn't make it without them.
But now I don't know what to do anymore. Almost every single one of my friends here in Colorado has now gotten hitched...and they don't have time to hang out with me anymore. That sounds selfish, I know, but I miss them so much. I feel so lonely...and it hurts. A lot. I have exactly ONE friend here, in the entire state, who still has plenty of time to hang out with me...and it's because she's single too.
Even when they're not actively 'engaged,' I'm the third wheel. I have
to wander off by myself to give them their privacy when they start
making out, or I don't know what's going on when they start using all
their gf/bf inside jokes and lingo.
I didn't realize exactly HOW MUCH it really hurt until I called my Mum and got all choked up. This past weekend was particularly brutal, after one of my dearest promised me that we'd have some quality girl time riding horses, and then ditched me at the last minute to hang out with her boyfriend. While I was telling my Mum about it, I burst into tears and just said that I miss my friends. I miss them so much that I'm crying even writing about them.
Girls, you all need to know how much you mean to your friends. You may not know it, because a good friend would never try to pull you away from your significant other, but your relationships with your sisters need nourishment too. Don't ditch your friends because you want some quiet time with your man. I know he needs love too, but with friendship comes an unspeakably poignant ability to wound those closest to you.
When you live in a difficult environment, the only thing you have is your friends. Without them, you have nothing. You ARE nothing. And now I'M nothing.
Hey, Bob, you wanna watch a movie Wednesday? -No, I can't. I'm hanging out with Sarah.
Emily, you got any plans this weekend? -Yeah, George and I are getting away to the mountains for a few days.
Katy, you, by any chance, free any time before the end of the school year? -Naw, sorry. Frank and I got plans.
Do any of you know what it feels like to have ALL of your friends turn their backs on you for 'love'? Because it hurts so much. I miss my family and my friends back home, because none of my brothers and sisters up here have time to spare for me anymore. It doesn't matter where I go, or who with. I'm always alone now.
I want you to know that, regardless of who I become attached to, I will never, EVER put that person in front of my friends. I wouldn't do that to any of you. NEVER. Your friendships are more valuable to me than any man that might come along. Even if he's 'the one,' you were all here for me first, and I will never abandon any of you.
I promise.
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| ...Welcome to USAFA. This is the 'inspirational' video Chief always makes us watch so we can feel better about ourselves. It's sort of amusing that after a year of Hell, they have to give us more training to teach us to be normal and confident again. SO they show us all these video clips and stuff with inspiring music and epic drama to show us that we may actually be 'cool' in the regular sense of the word.
YAY 2011! WE MADE IT BACK TO HUMANITY!
(OLDS!)
I tried uploading it using the video feature here on Xanga, but apparently it doesn't work. So click here to go right to the source: Youtube-> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5LAOXH0KK-U&feature=related
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| -----------------------------Another USAFA-Typical E-Mail---------------------------------------------------
-----Rachel-----
Guess where I am.
Thank you very much for your time and consideration.
//Signed//
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Rachel Donoho
Cadet Squadron "Great Eagle Eight"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Katy-----
Ummmmmmmm in class?
Thank you for your time and consideration in this matter.
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Katrina "Katy" Moffett
Cadet Squadron 35 "Huge Wild Weasels"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Rachel-----
Damn.
Lucky guess.
Thank you very much for your time and consideration.
//Signed//
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Rachel Donoho
Cadet Squadron "Great Eagle Eight"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Katy-----
HAH I win. Guess where I AM!??!?
Thank you for your time and consideration in this matter.
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Katrina "Katy" Moffett
Cadet Squadron 35 "Huge Wild Weasels"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Rachel-----
L6?
Thank you very much for your time and consideration.
//Signed//
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Rachel Donoho
Cadet Squadron "Great Eagle Eight"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Katy-----
OMG HOW DID YOU KNOW?????????
Kevin sent me a “Will you be my valentine?” bumper sticker.
I am taking my revenge……bahahahahaha.
Thank you for your time and consideration in this matter.
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Katrina "Katy" Moffett
Cadet Squadron 35 "Huge Wild Weasels"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Rachel-----
…I’m psychic. I even knew that Kevin sent you that sticker, because that’s just how powerful my mind is. See,
you should know these things.
Thank you very much for your time and consideration.
//Signed//
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Rachel Donoho
Cadet Squadron "Great Eagle Eight"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Katy-----
Wow. Just wow…… you must be like my training staff and can read minds and walk through walls and warp
time. Oh by the way, you inspired me to write another USAFA Tidbit note. Haha. you were my inspiration,
Rachel.
Thank you for your time and consideration in this matter.
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Katrina "Katy" Moffett
Cadet Squadron 35 "Huge Wild Weasels"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Rachel-----
Yay! Of course, you didn’t need to tell me that; I already knew it.
I was taking this “What kind of weapon are you?” quiz, and while answering one of the questions, I came to a
startling realization about myself:
I’ve developed the strange habit of having conversations with my appliances. Mostly in my head, but
whenever my roommate goes away for the weekend, I’ll do it out loud. Last night I had an argument with my
clack, but I rose above and refused to sink to its level. We haven’t really spoken since, and I feel a little bad.
It’s not nice to ignore your clock. I realize that now.
Thank you very much for your time and consideration.
//Signed//
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Rachel Donoho
Cadet Squadron "Great Eagle Eight"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Katy-----
LOL!!!!!!!!!
Rachel…I do that all the time.
>_< were fucking crazy!!!!!!!!
Thank you for your time and consideration in this matter.
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Katrina "Katy" Moffett
Cadet Squadron 35 "Huge Wild Weasels"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Rachel-----
Yeah…it sort of makes me glum that I know we’re going to fight again tonight. I wish I could end this vicious
cycle; it’s bad for both of us, especially Alarm Clock. I’m his only friend, so when we fight, who’s he going to
talk to? Amanda’s clock is an asshole, and the desk lamps don’t work.
Thank you very much for your time and consideration.
//Signed//
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Rachel Donoho
Cadet Squadron "Great Eagle Eight"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Katy-----
Hahahahaha. Rachel, maybe you should make some kind of concessiatory gesture as an apology. Maybe
promise not to hit him for a few mornings?
Thank you for your time and consideration in this matter.
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Katrina "Katy" Moffett
Cadet Squadron 35 "Huge Wild Weasels"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Rachel-----
…I NEVER hit him! What are you implying?!?!
Thank you very much for your time and consideration.
//Signed//
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Rachel Donoho
Cadet Squadron "Great Eagle Eight"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Katy-----
Oh…. Well, why aren’t you two getting along so well then?
Thank you for your time and consideration in this matter.
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Katrina "Katy" Moffett
Cadet Squadron 35 "Huge Wild Weasels"
United States Air Force Academy
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-----Rachel-----
I don’t know…it was stupid. He told me what time it was, and since it was really late and I was bummed that I
was only going to get a few hours of sleep, I snapped at him. I said, “Shutup, clock.”
Thank you very much for your time and consideration.
//Signed//
Very Respectfully,
Cadet Fourth Class Rachel Donoho
Cadet Squadron "Great Eagle Eight"
United States Air Force Academy
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| Wow. I forgot I had a Xanga. I look back now and realize how small I was, and felt, at the beginning of this great adventure. When everything around you, every stimulus you encounter throughout the course of a day convinces you how insignificant, how pitiful a being you are, it's so easy to believe it. So incredibly easy. You buy it all, hook, line, and sinker. No questions. What was that, Sir? I'm an abortion? Yes Sir, I understand. Ma'am? I'm not allowed to turn left? Yes, Ma'am. I apologize, Ma'am. I am not allowed to speak to my classmates, or plan spirit missions, or show class pride? Yes, Sir, I understand, Sir. What, you say you caught me having fun, Ma'am? No excuse, Ma'am. It won't happen again, Ma'am. And now, the final countdown has begun. It is January 16th. This will all be over March 18th. On March 18th, no more Sirs and Ma'ams. It will be Reuben, or Calvin, or Scarlet. Not Cadet This, Sir and Ma'am That. The Class of 2011 will be recognized in the Cadet Wing as upperclassmen...finally...permanently. Ironically enough, a 9-month journey. And how different we've all become. I often forget who I was before I came here. That person was lazy and ungrateful. She didn't know her blessings; how lucky and happy she truly was. She stressed about little things and was terrified of everything else. How much we've all grown. And now, you don't believe so easily anymore. Because now, you know. They can't tell you lies or give you crap; because you know the rules backwards and forwards and probably better than they themselves do. You know all the boundaries; the safe lines; the tricks and loopholes. And best of all, absolutely most wonderful of all, you have your friends. Your classmates, your comrades. And you get up every morning and wait to see each other, and you know: It doesn't matter. Nothing matters. Not for long. In fact, where once we used to be horrified to toe that line, terrified of punishment and abuse and immediate, physical retribution...now I can't wait. I can't wait for Recognition. Those three days in March, which everyone swears will be sheer misery...I'm excited. Because we know the rules. We know them from every angle, and we've followed them to the period for 7 months. And beginning at those 3 days, there's nothing they can do to stop us. We will rise to the challenge. Those rules? We don't care anymore. You can shove your stupid Sight Picture. We're almost. there. And we're not afraid anymore. 2 0 1 1 | | |
| Dude, USAFA cadets are so amazing, we don't even use AIM. We instant message via e-mail. Because we're just that awesome. And productive. Katy and I demonstrate the good 'ole Falcon work ethic: RACHEL: Oh…oops. I meant L1. >__> KATY: Lol. Im in l6 right now. RACHEL: Eah. I figured. Being productive, at least? KATY: Lol. Not really…I’m trying to figure out how to upload photos off my mobile phone to facebook…..:D RACHEL: Glad to hear it. I’m so good at writing essays in Japanese that apparently I can do it while drawing in my sketchbook and eating a Powerbar. KATY: Hahahahahahahaha. We are sooo lazy. RACHEL: Hai. Watashi-tachi desu. KATY: Lolololol. Im still laughing about that, im not kidding. :P RACHEL: LAWL. KATY: Lolzorz. RACHEL: Maaaaaaaaaaaa. KATY: Giglz. RACHEL: Fuufuufuu. KATY: Smackitysnicksnack. RACHEL: … …what the falcon. KATY: Your mom. RACHEL: HOH SNHAP. KATY: Uh huh. What now? RACHEL: Your FACE. KATY: YOUR MOMS FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RACHEL: T____T *psychological trauma* KATY: Lol. Just lol. RACHEL: I’m glad you’re able to find amusement in my severe emotional distress. KATY: Severe emotional stress my callouscoveredgreentoenailed foot. RACHEL: Ew. Gross. KATY: Kind of like your face!! RACHEL: That’s it. You’re officially shunned for the next half hour. KATY: *cries loudly so that Rachel can hear me in the next lectinar over* RACHEL: *SSSSSSHHHHHYYYYYUUUUUUUUUUNNNN* KATY: *cries louder* RACHEL: *hums Nation’s Strength enthusiastically* KATY: *threatens suicide* RACHEL: *hums Festive Overture in a really loud, annoying, MrSmithVoice* KATY: *kills herself* RACHEL: *dies* KATY: *parties cause we’re no longer at usafa* RACHEL: YESSSS. *brings music* KATY: *does the revolution* *and the Macarena* RACHEL: *Pops the Matrix in and starts doing Neo moves with cymbals* KATY: *begins profusely quoting the matrix like scripture* “Dodge this.” “You said never to take the freeway.” “Yes, That’s true.” “You said it was suicide.” “Then let us hope that I was wrong.” “Oh. Upgrades.” RACHEL: There is no Falcon. KATY: What if we just need to escape the academy like the matrix? WHERES MY FREAKING RED PILL?? RACHEL: …how far down the rabbit hole goes… …under the T-zo… KATY: What IS under the tzo anyway? RACHEL: If I had to make an educated guess, probably fallout shelters. There are those signs near all the stairways that go down there, and apparently it’s full of tunnels. Plus, it was built during the Cold War. KATY: Dude. Sweetness. when can we explore? RACHEL: Whenever we get the courage to brave the impressive consequences of such a venture. Or when we take the red pill. KATY: Dude. Let’s do it…. RACHEL: Hokai. KATY: Hows the Japanese going? RACHEL: Slow and steady. KATY: Good. | | |
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